Through the Fire

So the past few months I have realized how God's plan is so different than anything we could ever imagine.

"No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him."-1 Corinthians 2:9

I have known this truth but for a while but the reality has just now hit me. I'm in a place I never thought I would be. But, God always seems to surprise me with His wonderful plans.....

Im beginning a new journey, entering into healing. My new residency for the summer is Remuda Life in Chandler Arizona. Yes, I am in recovery for an eating disorder. I did not want to tell many people I was here because I was ashamed and overwhelmed with emotions when I was preparing to leave. But this isn't my story to keep secret. When darkness is revealed Christs light shines even brighter. Everyone has struggles and we want to keep them locked away in our hearts and minds for no one else to see. I believe this is what keeps us from truly being healed from past or present struggles. I am in the beginning stages of recovery and taking one day at a time. Its been one of the hardest things I have ever done, but I know this is where I need to be. I instantly felt peace when I arrived and knew this was right. I feel as if i've been here forever and I'm living in a dream. I wake up each morning confused and think is this really my life right now? Am i really in recovery for an eating disorder? Some days the reality is overwhelming but mostly I live in a hazy fog of reality. 

Originally I said 30 days and that all I need. But the Lord has literally taken every ounce of control I had ( or what I thought I had at least) and revealed to me how much I try to control my life and place Him in the backseat. So now I am seeing what surrender and becoming a servant to Him really means. He has blessed me with a willing spirit and I will not put a limit on my recovery. Whether it is 30, 60, 90 or more days I don't care. I just want to be healed and restored from this disorder which I have fought my entire life.

My relationship with Jesus has been effected by my relationship with ED(eating disorder) For someone who has never struggled with this cant fully understand but just to let you know having ED is a full time job and commitment. The amount of time thinking, planning, and obsessing is absolutely exhausting. This left no time for my first love, Jesus. He took the second place in my heart. I cringe as I write those words but its true. I think about the Israelites and the golden calf they made into an idol and worshiped. This is what I have done with ED. He was in control and had power over me. I did whatever he said and chose to find my own happiness instead of true joy that comes from the Lord. But I am excited, nervous, and terrified about what God has planned for this season of life. But for now I am trying to relax and let purification and refinement happen. It hurts more that I can ever fully express and sometimes im overwhelmed with hopelessness. But the Lord gave me this verse before I came to treatment and he keeps bringing me back

This is my command--be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the LORD your God is with you wherever you go."-Joshua 1:9

So, right now I'm in the pit. Its hard and I want to give up and say everything is fine, I'm okay. But its not. I'm learning to trust despite the fear of the unknown. A huge reason I am sharing this is because I NEED as many prayers as possible. This is not going to be an  easy journey so I ask you would continually  intercede on my behalf. Its time for healing and a new chapter to unfold. Sooo here we go....

I do not have my cell phone and will not until I go home. I get internet once a week but please feel free to write me or send me goody packages! My address is

 Kailey Kemp

111 S. Hearthstone Way

 Chandler, AZ 85226

Prayers would be very much appreciated this week!! ALOT to do so little time! 

So Happy

Tomorrow I am going home for Easter!!! I don't remember the last time I was this excited to go home. Looking forward to a weekend of relaxing and seeing my amazing family. And most importantly we get to celebrate THE CROSS!! I am so excited to rejoice with my church family and remember how beautiful our Savior is! 

"In his death Jesus demonstrated God's love for us in the fullest possible way, achieved total victory over evil, and made our salvation possible. He was not merely a good man who died as an example of virtue or meekness; he was the perfect God who took our burdens of sin and guilt and made them his burden. His death was not an example to inspire us but a sacrifice to save us! "





Easter means that this life on earth is not all there is. Jesus went “to prepare a place for us” in His Father’s heavenly mansions for all eternity. Jesus died for our sins, paying our penalty, so that we could be forgiven. He was resurrected, to prove that death has no hold on those who repent and accept Him as Savior. This life on earth is a prelude to eternal joy with our Lord. Easter is a celebration
of our eternal destiny. ~ Joanna Fuchs

Ridere un Sacco-Laugh Alot

  

Dance 

Laugh More. Enjoy this day 

Hope everyone enjoys this day the Lord has so graciously blessed us with! Spring is finally here and Oxford is B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L. As I've been walking around campus, sunbathing on the tri delta patio, and afternoon walks around town I realized that I basically live in a dream world. Oxford in the spring is my favorite time of the year. Rejoice today in the creator and enjoy his creation!

Its Time

"This is time in your life when you must learn to let go :of loved ones, possessions, of control. In order to let go of something that is precious to you, you need to rest in my presence, where you are complete. Take time to bask in the light of My love. When you being to relax, your grasping hands gradually open up, releasing your prized possessions into My care."

Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead,

 -Philippians 3:13

For I am the LORD your God, who upholds your right hand, Who says to you, 'Do not fear, I will help you.

-Isaiah 41:13

                   So the journey begins here. Letting go and trusting in His steadfast love....

Happy Monday

The riches of your love will always be enough