
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Monday, January 9, 2012
Unashamed
And of course there was scary rock music playing in the background. Just what you expect at a tattoo place. I looked at Kels and said alright who is going to share the gospel you or me. And we both decided to start up a conversation when he asked the meaning of her tattoo. Long story short we got into a spiritual conversation with Ray and every other word was a cuss word or something negative but as we kept talking he described himself as religious. After that he then said he had met the devil before. My immediate response was oh really? I would love to hear about it. So ray tells us all about his life from his parents hating and abandoning him at 14 to his life that involved heavy drugs, drinking, and wandering away from the Lord. As a young child he always wondered why God hated him and left him. He told us stories from his life that just broke my heart and I cant even imagine having to deal with those circumstances. Two different times during the conversation ray just stopped doing the tattoo and said whoa do you feel that. Look at my arm, I have goosebumps. I only get those when Im talking about God. I think its because y'all are here. I just smiled and was thinking yes that would be the presence of the Lord! He went on to say how he knew we were there for a reason that day and God does nothing by accident and how he has been needing some good people to talk to because he has no one. He also said that he would like to return to church but most people there don't accept him because of the way he looks. By the end of the conversation we were all talking about God's goodness and rays speech completely changed compared to the beginning. We exchanged numbers and hopefully ray will come to church with us! I am not writing this to bring attention to Kelsey or myself. I wanted to share this story because I was so convicted after I left the tattoo parlor of how many "rays" i have missed out on because I was scared. God revealed to me that people are EVERYWHERE EVERYDAY just waiting to talk about Jesus! Yes we will come across those who completely shut the door on the gospel but we will never know what God wants to do unless we have faith. The bible calls for us to share the gospel at every opportunity and to be fearless because it is not us working but His power working through us. We have no idea what God is doing in someones life and heart. I believe he always accomplishes his work and it is nothing but a blessing that we get to take part in that. I want to encourage everyone reading this to be unashamed and take steps of faith in sharing the gospel with a family member, friend, coworker, or a complete stranger. The whole world is waiting to be saved but how will they know unless we tell them?Friday, December 23, 2011
What is Love


After breakfast Jesus asked Simon Peter, “Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?[
“Yes, Lord,” Peter replied, “you know I love you.”
“Then feed my lambs,” Jesus told him.
16 Jesus repeated the question: “Simon son of John, do you love me?”
“Yes, Lord,” Peter said, “you know I love you.”
“Then take care of my sheep,” Jesus said.
17 A third time he asked him, “Simon son of John, do you love me?”
Peter was hurt that Jesus asked the question a third time. He said, “Lord, you know everything. You know that I love you.”
Jesus said, “Then feed my sheep.
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Bend Lower
June 2011
Around here, we live bent low.
Tuesday morning ladies from Masese stream through my front door. We have moved our weekly meeting from the slum of Masese to my living room because I have been up all night with new foster baby and can’t imagine getting all 14 of these little people out of the house. Excited about a change of pace and my sweet friends in my home, I enlist the help of darling Tamara and 13 eager little girls to give these ladies pedicures. We wash and we rub and we paint. I rub lotion into old scarred feet and think of the journeys they have traveled. I whisper thanks for the ways they have blessed me and the things they have taught me, and here in a puddle on the hard tile floor, Joy overflows.
It is on this same cold, smooth tile that I kneel hours later, face inches away from the burn on Makerere’s calf. The stench doesn’t even bother me anymore. And while it looks horrific to outside eyes, I remember what it looked like months ago and ever so slowly, I can see the healing. I can see the healing in the blood red life that spills out as I bandage and in the smiling eyes that tell me stories as I work. Laying on my belly with a surgical blade I scrape out the dead and do my best to preserve the new pink tissue that is starting to form around the edges. He laughs and says, “I have told you now all the stories I have! It must be your turn.” And I tell him a story of a Heavenly King born as a pauper and of a Body broken for me and for him and for each one of us. And I don’t even realize but there are tears on the tile and I sit astonished that messy, inadequate, ungraceful me would get to share such a story.
We sit in the dirt, not worried about the red stains and serve 400 plates of food to sponsored children on Saturday. I look into these faces and remember them nearly 4 years ago, destitute and hopeless and starving. Afraid of my funny white skin. We feed them lunch and we feed them God’s Word and we watch them transform. We feel like family now, no one noticing these skin differences. The suns rays beat down the glory of God and covered in mud and chicken broth I know that this is contentment.
Our family sits on the street corner down town sharing ice cream and laughter. My daughter bends low to offer a homeless man her popsicle and as he cries that no one cares about him she looks straight into his face. “We will be your family,” she asserts, and she means it. We kneel on the pavement and we pray and people stop to look but we hardly notice because we were made for this.
We bend.
I bend to sweep crumbs and I bend to wipe vomit and I bend to pick up little ones and wipe away tears. I bend over a big pot of stew and I bend to fold endless laundry and I bend over math books and spelling sentences and history quiz corrections. And at the end of these days I bend next to the bed and I ask only that I could bend more, bend lower.
Because I serve a Savior who came to be a servant. He lived bent low. And bent down here is where I see His face.
He lived, only to die.
Could I?
Die to self and just break open for love.
This Savior, His one purpose to spend Himself on behalf of messy us. Will I spend myself on behalf of those in front of me?
And people say, “Don’t you get tired?” and yes, I do. But I’m face to face with Jesus in the dirt, and the more I bend the harder and better and fuller this life gets. And sure, we are tired, but oh we are happy. Because bent down low is where we find fullness of Joy.
Praying for you as you bend today for whoever is in front of you. He will meet you there.
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Happy Tuesday
Monday, December 12, 2011
Where are you Christmas


in the image of God he created them;
male and female he created them.
